I Remember

Moments,  your face
Smiles during my kisses
Joy and heart in our embrace
They're tattooed in my mind
Memories
Brief,  yours and mine
I'll never forget
The taste of your kiss
Scent of morning breath
Always these thoughts find space in my head
Never before had I felt this
Not a moment earlier would I know it
A week later I would know a new fear
A new pain
A year would pass before I heard truth
I never saw it as a game
But then neither did you
You always expected the pain
I never knew
You taught me disdain

Sweet Dreams

If I asked you
Would you run away with me ?
Would you save my heart?
Take it
Don't let it shatter
Quickly before it falls apart
Someone , someday has to want it right ?!
One day no more
No  !
No more lonely nights!
So many can sit upon my chest
So many
Too many
Neither mind nor heart find time to rest
Eyes close , take a breath
Another day
Another test

Rupture

Reach in and grab it
hold onto it
slowly, carefully pull it out
engulf it
bury it inside you
let it feel your warmth
yours
let them touch and tangle
twist
take care not to mangle
as the push and pull
charge and retreat
friction fusing
pressure,
heat
feel the pulsing now increasing
naked now , no walls they're wearing
only this
this that they are sharing
Don't stop now, ever
why now in this damp weather
it feels so cold
both so bare
what happened to that moment I wished,
I thought,
I knew,
we almost shared

2-14-2011

I think of this girl, night and day
her image in my mind never fades
She is sweet and kind, a caring soul
far more valuable than any jewel
My heart is kept deep within
to protect myself , though somehow
she found it and she crawled in
I hope she knows it is hers alone
to take to keep to call her own
the scariest thing to give away
I never planned it
I hope she stays
it aches when time passes that I don't hear
that beautiful voice enter my ear
It celebrates those few brief moments..
her greeting, her laugh , they are the beating of my heart
the light piercing the morning clouds
the moon entering the night
I see her eyes, her smile, her soft skin
I am lost in those eyes
I want to be the one who makes that smile appear
I want to run my fingertips over her slowly
to feel her energy
her tenderness
I want to feel her heart
does it beat like mine?
I must be patient
she has my time

Arms

The humming of the empty silence within reach
Like a world so freeing , constantly dreaming
So often, so many
This one different, you could never prove in speech
Or begin to understand
The feeling felt and known firsthand
The souls of ages passed , the current reserved man
Arms and hands to use in health
Uncover fortune
Dig up wealth
Yet the valuables in question , in mention
You'll find no specified direction
You could put a crater in this earth
So deep a pit you'd fall in first
Reaching and grasping with all your might
Suffocated by it's girth
You'd truly believe you wished you never started on this plight
It will be a candle here and there
That keeps you digging
Losing air
As it burns away the life within your lungs

Almost Never

It was there
I, you
Ours to have, to share, to explore
As we descended, tumbling into new
We observed as we inhaled
The mind, that tricky thing
The stimuli , the bridge, the shore
It will steal it all from you
You'll leave with only fragments
Pieces of what you almost knew
You'll hold onto them, forget them
As if they were never there
One day a cool deep breath
That tricky thing you see
It will awaken , it will stare
Into those drawers and closets deep inside
That room it built from which you hide
The pieces stolen and stored
Now weathered and warped
They don't fit together anymore
The puzzle left not like before
It was never yours

Intrigue

Interesting I find the new
A glimmer in the dust
This one caught my eye, how and why
The uncertain, unsought after, entertained curiousity
Commencement of unknown
Dialogue woven through my mind
Perpetual climax lingers on a tounge
That word, that one of many
I lust for the possibilities

For Lack of a Better...

A well defined line
So long I have possessed,
Created
So many times the hourglass inverts
Life's foundation resets
Stalling my many dreams
Diminished
Vein of life full
Choked by my own ideals
Overtly,
Regretfully growing cold
Living vacant
Solitary
By my own doing
Inadvertent

Strings

Many times throughout my days,
The image in my mind
In my heart her beauty stays
A sweet warmth undefined
For her love I yearn
I feel her heart though guarded she remains
Sorrow grows as days burn
When is that moment?
My heart's turn
To feel a love she holds inside
is it possible?
Will her's ever beat beside mine?
Two lives started so far apart
Could they grow as one?
So deep I hope
As she will always own my heart

Replay

Warm days, beautiful nights
Head filled to the brim
Pictures and dreams
Forgotten scenes
Wearing that sleeve thin
Repeatedly lying in that empty bed
Every night
Moment
Every thread
Twisting and tangling in my head